Monday, June 10, 2013

The Halo Lifts...

There is a concept that has always fascinated me, about souls and angels and our human connections to one another. About how we can feel so close to some people, and about how long it can last until we grow apart. Because no matter how close, we always grow apart in the end, don't we?

I believe in soul friends and soul mates. I believe in angels too. And I believe that sometimes (though rare), you find these blessings in people. Its quite hard to describe these people, because while many will see them as normal human beings like you and I, to others, or to a select one, this person will be seen as something more. I'm not sure which term I can use to coin them, but heaven-sent to say the least...

This person will be your shining light, your protection, your shelter from all harm. This person will be by your side whether you need him/her to or not, whether you're right or you're wrong, looking out for you, your inner voice, your conscience, again, shining a light in the dark, knowing when it is dark (without you having to say a word), and never breaking that promise, that connection. It could be for just a moment, for days, weeks, months, or years, maybe several years. But eventually there will be a separation. And for the life of me I still can't understand why…

I can't tell you that I've changed or that the other person has changed either. Maybe the times have changed, maybe the winds have changed. But the beauty I used to see in some people is gone, just gone…

That halo that I used to see above your head, its been lifted, its no longer there. The light doesn't shine from you anymore. Why? Has it been transferred to another? Can you not have more than one special soul or angel in your life? Because the amount of love we have, can we truly distribute it among others or is it reserved just for one?

In the end, we don't belong to anyone. We are only temporality placed in another's custody for a short or a long period of time. And no rings or words make you another's.

Though it breaks my heart, your halo has lifted. You have taught me and given me all that you could, little or great as it might have been, and I'd like to think I've done the same for you. Because I love you, I love you so much but I just don't like you anymore. And I think you love me but don't like me anymore too. And I think its at that moment, that moment of "love without like", that's the moment the halo lifts…


I think i've found a new soul/angel now...

1 comment:

  1. When I started reading this post, I couldn't help but think of Cohello's Brida & when I scrolled down and discovered ur inspiration in the previous post, I smiled. What u have just described is part of growing older, everything shifts and that's not always a bad thing. Glad u found a new soul/angel :)

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